This Night of Nights

Today is the last day of 2009. Has anything changed from last year, is anything different?
So much has changed completely. Mostly for the good.
Yeah God.
You heard me.
I'm being thankful.
Thank You.

I almost decided to stay at home and do zero things for New Year. Because I was lazy, and I wanted maybe finally a full night's sleep at last.
And then I sat and thought about it.
For like 7 hours (because I don't actually have any work to do at the moment).
(In between MLIA, tvtropes and A Very Potter Musical).
And I realised that I was going to mark myself as a Freak For All Time if I sat at home. This would be the night I would look back on in anger and bitterness when I have become a hard and twisted woman, and someone foolishly mentions the word 'New Year', 'Jennifer's Body' or 'Alone'.
Basically, I felt the decision to stay at home would scar me for life.
So I'm going out for New Year's, and I will spend this night, that doesn't really mean anything, but really also means so much, with people (in a non-orgy way).

Dear 2009.
You were an eventful year, a bit sloppy sometimes, but you did your best and came through at the end, just like Captain Mal.
When you end, I hope I'll feel it.
Goodbye.

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Nerf Wars

Yesterday I discovered that Obi-Wan did not keep Qui-Gon's lightsaber after lopping off Darth Maul's head.

I feel disappointed in Ewan McGregor.

How can I ever look at him the same way again?

I feel like Ben Kenobi should have been devestated enough

by his Master's death that he should have lived the rest

of his life out as a Nerf Herder.

Sea Path

How far now to unfathomable?
How far now to the darkness beneath?
If I can't read you, then I can't understand you
It's getting deep and it's hard to breathe

I am riding on the back of a serpent
As she slides through the sea
Her fragile scales crushed under my grip
As her poison holds me

Where is the end of this journey?
In blue waters of tragedy?
In dark caverns of forgotten love
That stain a soul eternally

How long more do I venture
To what I do not know
You are not here, you may not be there
But Ocean tells me, go

The swirling waters, the endless night
Is this where I will find you?
Yet ghost fishes wearing the souls of old wishes
Wander through and through and through

I am no god, and I will end soon
And you will go on as lost as before
So tell me, where is your unfathomable
Tell me, how far more?

I may find you, or I may seek the moon
Or am I now seeking her fallen reflection
Twisted by the waves, eaten by the creatures
Where did you go to not return?
Let me wait for you.