This Night of Nights

Today is the last day of 2009. Has anything changed from last year, is anything different?
So much has changed completely. Mostly for the good.
Yeah God.
You heard me.
I'm being thankful.
Thank You.

I almost decided to stay at home and do zero things for New Year. Because I was lazy, and I wanted maybe finally a full night's sleep at last.
And then I sat and thought about it.
For like 7 hours (because I don't actually have any work to do at the moment).
(In between MLIA, tvtropes and A Very Potter Musical).
And I realised that I was going to mark myself as a Freak For All Time if I sat at home. This would be the night I would look back on in anger and bitterness when I have become a hard and twisted woman, and someone foolishly mentions the word 'New Year', 'Jennifer's Body' or 'Alone'.
Basically, I felt the decision to stay at home would scar me for life.
So I'm going out for New Year's, and I will spend this night, that doesn't really mean anything, but really also means so much, with people (in a non-orgy way).

Dear 2009.
You were an eventful year, a bit sloppy sometimes, but you did your best and came through at the end, just like Captain Mal.
When you end, I hope I'll feel it.
Goodbye.

Mesti

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Nerf Wars

Yesterday I discovered that Obi-Wan did not keep Qui-Gon's lightsaber after lopping off Darth Maul's head.

I feel disappointed in Ewan McGregor.

How can I ever look at him the same way again?

I feel like Ben Kenobi should have been devestated enough

by his Master's death that he should have lived the rest

of his life out as a Nerf Herder.

Sea Path

How far now to unfathomable?
How far now to the darkness beneath?
If I can't read you, then I can't understand you
It's getting deep and it's hard to breathe

I am riding on the back of a serpent
As she slides through the sea
Her fragile scales crushed under my grip
As her poison holds me

Where is the end of this journey?
In blue waters of tragedy?
In dark caverns of forgotten love
That stain a soul eternally

How long more do I venture
To what I do not know
You are not here, you may not be there
But Ocean tells me, go

The swirling waters, the endless night
Is this where I will find you?
Yet ghost fishes wearing the souls of old wishes
Wander through and through and through

I am no god, and I will end soon
And you will go on as lost as before
So tell me, where is your unfathomable
Tell me, how far more?

I may find you, or I may seek the moon
Or am I now seeking her fallen reflection
Twisted by the waves, eaten by the creatures
Where did you go to not return?
Let me wait for you.

I Loved You First

I spent Raya at my Uncle's place (which is where I spend every Raya anyways ;)). We did things like:

Wake up at an ungodly hour (ie 6 am, only to go back to sleep and wake again at 7 am).
Serve food (Really yummy food).
Eat lots of said food.
Take lots of photos (which someone has yet to upload).
Coin a phrase.
Watch my eldest cousin choke on teh tarik.
Decide to nickname our youngest cousin Baby (being, as she is, a 4-month-old baby).
Go shopping in Raya clothes, complete with Hannah's sleeves rolled up from washing dishes and the near-decrepit crocs I swiped from my 13-year-old cousin, as I have no slippers of my own (When I think about it, I realise how living in Cyber has actually made me amenable to this, as I am so desperate to shop that I grab every opportunity, regardless of attire)
(In my and Hannah's defense, we were so excited about sneaking off to shop, we didn't realise that we looked like......that).
Skive off later washing-up to go karaoke (and sing Sk8er Boi).

Best Raya so far? I think so.

The Tides of Man

The other day I was at Pyramid with Kat. While waiting for Kat to buy a donut (because she has a stomach the size of an army base), I watched the people on the ice-skating rink.

Of course, the first person who caught my eye was this dude with The Most Disastrous Haircut On Earth. No joke. He looked like he ran headfirst into an orange pompom. Kat said it was not too bad, and hey, who am I to judge other people's life choices?

I am Sam, just to clarify that.

Then Kat came back and we spent the nxt 15 minutes watching this cute couple skate around. Except the longer we watched, the more we realised that they weren't actually a couple.
The girl was a much better skater than the guy, and she kept leaving him behind, or skating just out of his reach. The guy pretty much sucked. But he obediently struggled all over the ice, with her just inches away. Just inches away, but out of his reach.

HA HA HA HA.

Basically, he was there ONLY for the girl. And he was quite cute, but the girl seemed quite immune. She was immune all over the rink. I wonder if he regrets strapping on the skates now. Still, she might thaw once they were off the ice.

It was sweet though. I was witnessing an age-old human ritual : Courtship. Or at least an attempt at one.

It's almost time for a carol

My Life is Average.com

Everyone has a list of things they want to do before they die.

I have no such list.

But as of now, I have the beginnings of a list of things that I sure won’t do.

The List:

I Will Not:

1. Bungee jump

2. Sky dive

3. Parachute

4. Roller coast

5. Ride a carousel

6. Parasail

7. Scuba dive

8. Get on The Eye, that giant, psychotic ferris wheel that they have in every country

9. Hike

10. Mountain Climb

11. Rock Climb

12. Cycle

13. Use stairs

I shall be adding more stuff to this list. You can be sure of it.