Human Stain

Fighting wildly against our fates,
Spiralling through life, and love, and dreams
Falling through everything it seems

Shattered halos rain full down
We watch and weep; what we have been
And our hopes are scattered into the earth
Feeding the monsters we gave birth

So if there's a loving hand above
Why weren't we caught and given love
Why insist we fall so far
What are we all doing in the same bar?
Is there a holy light shining through the beer
Is there any light...
Sorry, no miracles here

With our fragile hands and breakable wings
Shouldn't we be doing greater things.

Being Human

We see each other almost everyday.
We laugh and talk and drink together.
All of a sudden, we're people. And we're in each other's lives.

Gateway

Sometimes the bridges we have to cross make our feet bleed.

But I'll suck it up, because it's better to be wounded and heal, than to stay in one place forever.

This Night of Nights

Today is the last day of 2009. Has anything changed from last year, is anything different?
So much has changed completely. Mostly for the good.
Yeah God.
You heard me.
I'm being thankful.
Thank You.

I almost decided to stay at home and do zero things for New Year. Because I was lazy, and I wanted maybe finally a full night's sleep at last.
And then I sat and thought about it.
For like 7 hours (because I don't actually have any work to do at the moment).
(In between MLIA, tvtropes and A Very Potter Musical).
And I realised that I was going to mark myself as a Freak For All Time if I sat at home. This would be the night I would look back on in anger and bitterness when I have become a hard and twisted woman, and someone foolishly mentions the word 'New Year', 'Jennifer's Body' or 'Alone'.
Basically, I felt the decision to stay at home would scar me for life.
So I'm going out for New Year's, and I will spend this night, that doesn't really mean anything, but really also means so much, with people (in a non-orgy way).

Dear 2009.
You were an eventful year, a bit sloppy sometimes, but you did your best and came through at the end, just like Captain Mal.
When you end, I hope I'll feel it.
Goodbye.